Change

Something happened yesterday that rattled me like nothing has in a long time and I couldn’t figure out then if it was for the better or for worse. It happened so unexpectedly and so honestly, that I couldn’t think straight for a long time after that…but all it took was a flash of a second…a moment of clarity for the thought to sink in! I also know now that it was for the better :)

I discovered or shall I say re-discovered something about me that was dormant for a long time. In that instant of fracas, where we were simply arguing for the sake of it coz we didn’t know how to end the discussion, I disliked myself completely…and in that split second of tension, the person I saw as me was not the one I wanted to be; instead I was turning out to be the exact opposite of that… slowly but surely!

After spending the last 24 hours trying to get over the ambiguity that had overwhelmed me with little or no success, I started writing…first in my mind and later on this post. It helped me clear my head for sure and I’ve never been happier to say the words, “I’m back” and I can with utmost humility say that I like the new me (or is it the old me???!!!). It certainly isn’t the one I saw last night! Whoa, am I glad or what?